I most definitely want to publish my work. However, I am also a bit of a perfectionist in writing, which is not a good thing. No story/game/etc is perfect, especially not in the eyes of its most stringent critic - the author. Its a matter of knowing good enough and letting go.

There is also the matter of art. And editing. And finding a publisher that accepts new rules sets, rather than just new OGL material.

Furthermore, I'd like to have at least one or two "official" play-tests so I've got a good working system. By showing I'm proactive and have done the testing already, I can probably impress that I need less oversight. While there is nothing wrong with team efforts, creative control is a wonderful feeling.

There is a fine line between hobby and obsession. I seem to have lost sight of it some time ago.